Okey, so lately I have been feeling rather unmotivated about things in general – didn’t want to write a blog, didn’t want to be on a diet, didn’t want to study, didn’t want to be helpful. Nothing. The past week has been strange indeed. I’m used that he doesn’t talk that much to me, so I haven’t really got an end to it all, but we have broken up… I seriously think I am in denial of some kind. I don’t want to realise that we have actually broken up, but I don’t want to see an end to it either. It wasn’t a good relationship in the long run, it wasn’t but it have given me so much that has made me stronger and actually more willing to try hard to make it work. But a relationship is a two-person-thing, mostly. You can’t just walk around and work your ass off and then the other person just sits and doesn’t help at all. Maybe it’s for the best this all that happened? Only time will tell this time, and I will just wait and see what happens. At least I am not crying every night anymore…
Tonight it’s time for my second concert with Kent! It will be fun to see them again and this time with their new songs since last time!
I am trying to find any kind of motivation to start with the dieting again and I think I will start with it all tomorrow. But it’s rather amazing that I have been cheating with the diet and all that and still I manage not to gain weight! That is rather amazing in my opinion and me soooo happy! Seriously though, I will start with it all tomorrow and then I will rock everyones socks at it!
Now I will stop writing again, I feel rather "meh" about things today, which sucks since the concert is tonight and me like to be all happy about it! I guess it has something to do with the fact that next week I will be going to Göteborg for my Japanese class and I really don't like that class. I like the homework when they are well made but the lessons gosh I dislike them. Some people are so arrogant and the teachers are just making me more insecure about myself. I hate talking in public when it's in Japanese. I mean, I don't learn things that way.
But don't you guys worry about my mood and all that, I know I will be fine I just have to find a little motivation and things will be tip top again! Promise!
Tonight it’s time for my second concert with Kent! It will be fun to see them again and this time with their new songs since last time!
I am trying to find any kind of motivation to start with the dieting again and I think I will start with it all tomorrow. But it’s rather amazing that I have been cheating with the diet and all that and still I manage not to gain weight! That is rather amazing in my opinion and me soooo happy! Seriously though, I will start with it all tomorrow and then I will rock everyones socks at it!
Now I will stop writing again, I feel rather "meh" about things today, which sucks since the concert is tonight and me like to be all happy about it! I guess it has something to do with the fact that next week I will be going to Göteborg for my Japanese class and I really don't like that class. I like the homework when they are well made but the lessons gosh I dislike them. Some people are so arrogant and the teachers are just making me more insecure about myself. I hate talking in public when it's in Japanese. I mean, I don't learn things that way.
But don't you guys worry about my mood and all that, I know I will be fine I just have to find a little motivation and things will be tip top again! Promise!
2 kommentarer:
The denial phase is very common when tough things happen. Just let everything have its time, and you'll be fine.
You have people around you to talk to if you need, I'm one of them.
Enjoy Cunt....eh Kent!
Hoppas du har jättekul på Kent iaf och att du inte låter sånt här tråk komma ivägen <3
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