A lot on my mind...

I want to feel like I am making process in this whole self-developing thing I am trying to figure out. I think I am making progress, but then a little step forward demands a huge one back it feels like. I can't take this, it's driving me bloody insane. I don't know where to go, where to turn who to turn to, no one would make things better it feels like now. It's just, too much. I feel so stupid, so stupid for sitting here and even writing this.

I will just disappear for awhile maybe or not who knows. For fuck sake just... I'll be around... maybe. Gosh...I hope this is just mood swings cause this is driving me insane.