To hell with the Legend bullshit. I am Grown Up! I sit and drink coffee and sandwiches I have made to myself = breakfast. Yes that is grown up in my eyes. *melodrama*
Yes this is going to be depressing, but I need to write it. I'm scared. So scared that shitting my pants would be my smallest problem. So what's bugging the brain of Ewe then? What's scaring her? Mainly it's about being alone, I know I have all of you guys, being there for me, supporting me. But what I need is him, and if things turn out the wrong way I'd be so lost. I try to think positive on these things but after the past couple of nights it's hard not to cry. The thought of loosing someone you love, I can't take it. Especially when it's such strong feelings involved. I sat here thinking that HE needs a wake up call, but this morning texting Mandy, I realized that I am the one who needed it. I'm not ready to loose someone I love this much, not over such a stupid thing as distance. Cause in the long run it's the distance who's the bitch, and none of us know how we should deal with this. We deal with it in different ways, I'd blame the gender, because of the fact that he rather make it easy for himself and push me away and I won't give up. Though that has nothing to do with the genders I know but I want to blame and curse something. So Curse Them!
I know I have you boys and girls, I am so thankful for all the times you're listening to my complains and shit. I don't know how I can make it up to you all, but I won't stop until I have made it up to you guys.
All I will do now is wait. I know it'll be worth it.
Yes this is going to be depressing, but I need to write it. I'm scared. So scared that shitting my pants would be my smallest problem. So what's bugging the brain of Ewe then? What's scaring her? Mainly it's about being alone, I know I have all of you guys, being there for me, supporting me. But what I need is him, and if things turn out the wrong way I'd be so lost. I try to think positive on these things but after the past couple of nights it's hard not to cry. The thought of loosing someone you love, I can't take it. Especially when it's such strong feelings involved. I sat here thinking that HE needs a wake up call, but this morning texting Mandy, I realized that I am the one who needed it. I'm not ready to loose someone I love this much, not over such a stupid thing as distance. Cause in the long run it's the distance who's the bitch, and none of us know how we should deal with this. We deal with it in different ways, I'd blame the gender, because of the fact that he rather make it easy for himself and push me away and I won't give up. Though that has nothing to do with the genders I know but I want to blame and curse something. So Curse Them!
I know I have you boys and girls, I am so thankful for all the times you're listening to my complains and shit. I don't know how I can make it up to you all, but I won't stop until I have made it up to you guys.
All I will do now is wait. I know it'll be worth it.
2 kommentarer:
räkost on those mackor? >< hhhahaa
O: Mathias, what kind of comment is that?!
XD
Dear, yes yes you are a grown up!! and erm, I know Ive been away from the net for a long time and now, after reading your post, its as if I lost a whole lot of stuff that went on with you!! So...all I can say is: hang in there, Ewe. You are a sweet girl and, well, HE will see that you are so so worth it!!
and this http://www.atonementthemovie.co.uk/site/site.html is the movie I talked about in my blog :p
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