The Humans are Dead!

Yes affirmative. I realized I didn't have time to write a blog... xD

The fight goes on! O.O

Some things...

Yes, some things in life makes me rather annoyed. One of those things are grownups who is denying some certain things that has happened in life. Or should I say that they have no clue of but trust one person more than the other. It's hard to know for sure when word stands against word but still, that's one more reason for the grownups to hear it from both sides before they decide who's "right".

I have seen and heard about so many abuses in life and when I get to hear about it today which I did from a friend, it pisses me off. But the thing that is even worse is when it's someone closer. I wish sometimes that when those things happened, that I would've been older and more aware of it all. When I see one person if I am out downtown, I really feel like walking up to that person and just hurt him. But that is wrong as well, but knowing how much a person suffered cause of him. GAH!

It felt nice to let it all out and now I will accompany my mother and watch TV with her.
Have fun ya'll!
*hugs*

EssayTime!

This morning when I woke up I had these brilliant ideas what to write in a blog, it has been the same for the past two days! I can't come up with anything, makes me sad. :(

So what's new? Today I have to spend my whole day writing an essay about Design Patterns, woo hoo. But Erik is back in la Suéde after being on a weekend in England. *whisper* He had a blast. Me so jealous. But me so happy he had a good time! ^.^

At the moment I am having a cold but it's starting to get better which is brilliant! Now I have to start writing that stupid essay so I don't have to stress when Jessica arrives after lunch and later tonight when I am going to make dinner for my family! O.O

Good day!

Video Killed the Radiostar

Poor mother ucka. Be killed by that, such a small thing as video, who know is killed by DVD who is soon to be killed and molested by BlueRay. Too many mother uckas...

So I had a rather good day yesterday out even though the circumstances could've been different but this is for the best. At least for now and it's good that we both agreed on this together so no one sits alone being depressed. Yes it hurts and I can't take away him or my status on communities. Don't ask me why but I just can't... Anyways. Now I am watching a good old movie that they are showing on TV today - Honey, I shrunk the kids. I don't think it needs any explanation and it's so old from late 80's - early 90's and the special effects are so adorable. I love it so it was nice to just relax in front of the TV and feel nostalgic.

Now I will study Japanese now that the movie is done and then I will maybe take a walk tonight. ^.^ Bye lovely fellas!

Break / break up

Not sure what we really did but... I'm ok. Promise!

Absolutely Zero

Current Status = confused... :(

For my Fans

http://nwt.se/ArticlePages/200802/18/20080218200004_623/20080218200004_623.dbp.asp

only in swedish though but it's about me. star melodrama star

Listing Time!!!

Things to do today:

• Japanese homework
• Read some economics and fix my notes
• Clean up in my unorganized room
• Workout tonight and before that fix dinner
• Also check up information at Bredbandsbolaget for Seon - Min

Things that's coming up:

• Gothenburg twice - 8/3 & 17/5
• Kent concert 1/3 in Karlstad
• Versailles X Matenrou Opera concert in Stockholm 30/3
• Cinemas on Friday - premiere for the movie Morgan Pålsson - Världsreporter
• Party on Friday with Jessica
• Cutting hair soon (no date)
  
• Countyfestival for Young Culture Meets in Deje 2-4/5 - oh yes I made it through!
• June the 14th or was it 16th? star melodrama star

I know I've been talking about London too but I have school as well and now that things doesn't look that bright anymore I think I will postpone it all for now.

Make Over -feelings

Yes I do need a make-over and that is soon. I started feeling the need for it awhile ago and a little of it was settled down when I started working out for real, but now - after Jessica's little make over today I need to do it too! I am thinking about it...

My urge to fix my hair started also a lot after seeing this picture from the site http://filipstad.ifolkmun.se

My hair looks like a helmet or some fucked up thing. I need to change it. >.< And I will. My hips look awfully wide too. Wonder what that picture would look like in a Widescreen TV. O.O

Cheers Darlings!

This is how I will cut my hair :

UKM

The direct translation of this event would be Young Culture Meets and that is exactly what it is. Exhibitions, performances and similar stuffs like that was on the menu and I will leave soon to enjoy the menu myself. Though there's only 2 groups who performs and I think we were 3 people with stuffs for the exhibition. Less and less people every year now. Lucky me it's my last year and I don't think I will go through to the county festival this year. I will post some pictures later on my pictures later. One of my pictures ended up with dents after I have glued them up on black paper which sucked, mom and I solved that problem pretty good though as you all will see later.

I met Jessica yesterday and watched Sweeney Todd with her and my mom on the cinemas! Was the premier show and I liked the movie a lot I must say, though I was expecting something more. But you can't have it all and I sat and watched it with much pleasure as I was quietly singing along .
Jessica and I had our own little date too. Since we both are away from our boyfriends and it has been Valentine's Day we said that this was our cute lovely date. It includes lots of laughter and burps at the Kebab House and later at the movies. Ahh good times. Best Date Ever! We have booked the tickets for the concert now but the train tickets are not correct! Wrong dates and all. Jessica is worried to tears and I am angry like never before at those bastards!

I am at the moment in a quest for the song Mathias wanted, after I have listened to it I can remember it and it annoys me like hell cause I want to know now as well. From now on I will only listen to Mathias midi-files that I know includes something I know of or that he isn't asking about. That man gives me trouble in a good way. I Hate Him Not.
Now I will run along and jump onto my big pink/purple cloud and be happy cause I don't feel like dancing and I want to be happy.

Btw. Lately I have noticed guys looking at me. It's scary, maybe they want my legs! O.O Note to Ewe - "cover legs". I'm odd today, and not Odd Fredriksson Odd, I mean like goofy.

Talk to you all later!

So here's some pictures ^.^

The original pictures you can find at http://extension_japan.pixbox.se cause no one of the pictures I took were good cause of the bad lightning combined with my low quality camera. So that picture is the only from the exhibition. Down here are some of the pictures from the Welcome Dinner for the abroad Students ^.^

Randomness

Today it's Valentine's Day, I'm not really that fond of this day but I think it has something to do with all the Hype around it and maybe because I am a bit jealous that I've never been able to spend the day with my loved one. Every year the same old same, but then again maybe it's good to have a day like this so that people that never get much love in their lives get something.

I don't really feel like writing today. Don't have much to say. That was a new one right?

Bye!

Bitch Update!

Yes, I know it was some days ago I wrote something but I haven't had much to write about and due to the little offline time I needed I have just forgot about writing. Sorry.

So what's been up with the lady in black? This week it's been one of the better for a long time so things are starting to improve. Though the course in economics we're having is fucking odd. We had an exam in the beginning of the week and it wasn't THAT hard in my opinion but the thing we're doing now. My reaction about it is "yawn" and "wtf". But my stupid friend Erik is helping me keeping the mood up and also stopping me from concentrating. That arsehole! *fucks with buttplug* MOAHA.

Things feels better now that I've decided to keep my thoughts in a realistic way and just focus on the good stuffs. Though I am not ignoring the bad shit but see it like this, some things you can't do shit about. It'll be OK in the end for fuck sake!

Now I have to run for workout then if I have time later I will maybe write some more. Oh I have to tell you all this! O.O On March 30th I will be in Stockholm and go to a concert! It's two Japanese bands playing! Hurrah! Me and Jessica will be there and almost everything is planned already! It'll be sweet!

*runs*

Powerless

I can't handle it anymore... The breakdowns, all the crying. The reason I go offline all the time is cause I don't want to nag about it all, I don't want to complain I don't want to cry anymore. But I do and with me not dealing with it I push it away for awhile and let it eat me up. Great Strategy Ewe! *4 out of 5 thumbs up for you*

I'm so fucking tired at this shit...

Rather Lame...

Yes, I am. Bye

The ShitGood day

This is the commercial for the new fragrance Bluff. Oh and this weekend Jessica comes home! ^.^ Yayay!

This day has in general been a rather bad one. But one certain package that came along the post car today brighten up so much! [insert red fox]. This package included two discs, DVD discs, with both music and teeny small good things, the best thing with everything was the teeny small good things that was the main reason for this package to be delivered in the first place, a package with teeny small good things including the whole first season of my new love Flight of the Conchords I just love them. Well so far I love the songs in it but I started watching a little before and giggled myself to insanity. I will watch it all night or like as much as I can!

Anyways, finally I got my photos printed though when I went to the car I dropped two out of three so I had to go back and redo them! >.< But they turned out to be rather good I don't think I'll go further to the next "competition", but it doesn't really matter. The reason I choose those pictures is cause they mean something to me and the titles says it all. The thing that isn't decided yet is whether I should have two frames one white around the picture and then a thicker one in black. Hard to decided. Now I will leave for workout.

I Am GrownUp!

To hell with the Legend bullshit. I am Grown Up! I sit and drink coffee and sandwiches I have made to myself = breakfast. Yes that is grown up in my eyes. *melodrama*

Yes this is going to be depressing, but I need to write it. I'm scared. So scared that shitting my pants would be my smallest problem. So what's bugging the brain of Ewe then? What's scaring her? Mainly it's about being alone, I know I have all of you guys, being there for me, supporting me. But what I need is him, and if things turn out the wrong way I'd be so lost. I try to think positive on these things but after the past couple of nights it's hard not to cry. The thought of loosing someone you love, I can't take it. Especially when it's such strong feelings involved. I sat here thinking that HE needs a wake up call, but this morning texting Mandy, I realized that I am the one who needed it. I'm not ready to loose someone I love this much, not over such a stupid thing as distance. Cause in the long run it's the distance who's the bitch, and none of us know how we should deal with this. We deal with it in different ways, I'd blame the gender, because of the fact that he rather make it easy for himself and push me away and I won't give up. Though that has nothing to do with the genders I know but I want to blame and curse something. So Curse Them!

I know I have you boys and girls, I am so thankful for all the times you're listening to my complains and shit. I don't know how I can make it up to you all, but I won't stop until I have made it up to you guys.

All I will do now is wait. I know it'll be worth it.

Snow!

Yes it has snowed for the past few days, today was not different than any other day. The snow means shoveling and since I've got a little money from it before I'll shovel later today again. The snow is both good and bad, the biggest bad thing is that I barely dare to drive when it's too much. Therefore I might not go to workout today, which sucks cause I want to but then I will workout at home instead. The music is slowly becoming mine as we speak.

Yesterday and the day before that I got a fun call from Magnus. Last night he woke me up but I didn't mind, it's always fun to talk to people who actually asks how you are and who are calling. So thank you Magnus for that, and also a thanks to Mathias for the times you have called. Don't think I forget about you that easily - give me candy and you'll be gone. *not*

So today I will continue on my list form yesterday and it's not THAT much to do, I just have to do it that's all and start with it. But now I have talked to my mom and she will help me with some things. Like she did yesterday and cut my bangs! (see picture below). I will cut the hair and then straighten it out more cause now I am going for longer hair. And if I get tired of my bangs there's always good Alice Bands. Weo Weo!

Now I will study! For real!

Check zhe Hair Outz!

• Run/jogging a little today
• Arrange/put up my Keyboard again
• Walk zhe walk/shovel zhe show
  
• Finish the papers with notes for Erik
• Do some programming
• Also some economics
• Clean up in my room.
• Check out zhe new haircut and color/cut zhe bangs
  

what's up?

• Run/jogging a little today
• Arrange/put up my Keyboard again
• Walk zhe walk/shovel zhe show
  
• Finish the papers with notes for Erik
• Do some programming
• Also some economics
• Clean up in my room.
• Check out zhe new haircut and color/cut zhe bangs
  

Don't worry about me, I had a huge attack last night and it was though but I'm OK now I think. Well, not completely but it's on its way kind of, hopefully. It's nice that you people care but I will be OK, cause I have you all.

A lot on my mind...

I want to feel like I am making process in this whole self-developing thing I am trying to figure out. I think I am making progress, but then a little step forward demands a huge one back it feels like. I can't take this, it's driving me bloody insane. I don't know where to go, where to turn who to turn to, no one would make things better it feels like now. It's just, too much. I feel so stupid, so stupid for sitting here and even writing this.

I will just disappear for awhile maybe or not who knows. For fuck sake just... I'll be around... maybe. Gosh...I hope this is just mood swings cause this is driving me insane.