Kiss of a Rose

It's a hard feeling. All that's inside and all the things around. I can't focus and I don't know what's wrong. I just don't, so I start finding the wrong things in my life that aren't such a big deal. Drama Queen, yup probably. But many of the things that I find are important in a way too. I think, I feel the way I do just cause I'm scared, this unsure feeling. Mixed with this feeling that what I'm feeling is wrong, or an ugly feeling, despicable. And I do feel so just cause of the reaction and all the drama that happened around it. I have to move on, I can't do anything, I don't want to do anything anymore. I don't care cause the people I want in my life are there. Why nag about those people who left?

I'm gone for a little more just to figure out more things. But what I do know is that I've been unfair, but at the same time I've been treated with much unfairness as well. Things like that has to be solved before I can start feeling the way I want to. It's like this roller-coaster, sometimes I'm so sure what I need to do for me and other times I am so unsure it just beats me down.

And I choose to talk with some people more than others, please understand that it has nothing to do with the person in question nor about the trust I have in that person. I just need some cause I know I need them.


Ciaran, dai suki!!! ~Note, has nothing to do with suckie all night long~

I won't ruin things that means something.
That has a meaning for me.
People that has "sex" as their thing. ;)
People that brings out the fun in you.
Those few that are priority always.
My crew. My VIP-crowd.

Wow...that wasn't ego at all ;)