Changes

Yes, this can't keep on going now. This is so pathetic in my opinion. Why should I just walk around in my own shit like this? It's not that healthy you know! I need to be able to do this alone now, can't rely on others all the time. I know I can do this. (Now Magnus and Mathias sits and wonders, "what is she talking about?") ;)

But it's not that hard really, if you really want some things in life to happen they will. I know I want it so bloody much and then we're halfway through right? There's so much I want to do and want to happen. And they will happen! Why? CAUSE I SAY SO!

So today I will workout some, I will study and I will clean the room a little. I might be able to put up my Keyboard this week! I can't stand this fucking bullshit I am doing to myself. It's an end to all this. Therefore I will leave a bit. Not completely like I have done before but yeah you'll get the deal.

First up on schedule : clean room and then Japanese also call for a job during summer and check up the books for school that yet hasn't arrived. >.<