Soft

Well I'm just sitting here atm. Guess I'm just staring at the keyboard and typing what comes into my head and what later goes through my nerves to my fingertops. I have this warm feeling inside, like when things are really going the right way. I can't think straight. I can't hear what I'm thinking, I'm just acting on impulse. I can feel it so good, it's so obvious. Or is it now?

Last night I sat up to almost half past 4. Just talking to Kim and laughing of course. I must say that I'm kind of proud over myself for being able to use my fucking mouth and actually spoke to him. Yet, I'm a little scared about calling him. Dunno why it's just how it is. Stupid ass. Anyways, the more I think about Kim, the more I talk to him, I just want to get the driving licence and get my ass over there. ^.^

I don't want to rush into things, I really don't want to do that. I don't want to make him unsure about things concerning himself and I don't want to be a bother for anyone... Sorry if I am. I just miss someone like him in my life. He really makes me laugh even at the silliest things and I'm just crazy, I don't know what I'm writing anymore.

I'm sure people might think that I'm still worried about things with Tom, but to be really honest, I don't know who he is anymore, I know more about Kim after a week that I knew about Tom after 3-4 years. I'm so tradgic at the moment I know. But what can you really do about it?

Oh yeah sorry... Jannika, I'll never forget what you wrote. *adore* I'm so happy to have you there and I promise I'll do my best to be a better gal. ;)

¤~lots of love~¤

Ewelina