...I freaked out. I got that feeling of loneliness, even though, my friends were all around me, but then again, I got the feeling that I didn't belong there. I was the one who felt lonely in the crowd. Why am I the one that feels this way, I don't dislike my company, I think they are the best. Maybe it's because I miss that little extra that someone can give. A person who is my other part it doesn't have to be a boyfriend, it could be anyone really.
I just felt so ugly yesterday, not a single person looked at me with an intention to show me that they liked my look. Shallowness isn't what I'm looking for but just one look could be enough for me. That would be what I need.
"We" talked yesterday, things didn't make sense anymore, I didn't want to talk to you, it was too painful. But I didn't know anyone else at the time that could be there for me. Thanks.
When I told a friend of mine that I felt unwanted and ugly, she asked me why, I had to tell her that I was joking and didn't mean what I said, otherwise I'd start crying. I felt the tears in my eyes. I felt that they would come out later, sooner or later that is. I didn't know and just wanted the feeling to disappear. But it will never disappear, not until I'll be able to deal with my problems. What exactly is my problem? What can I do to help myself, what can someone else do for me? I don't know anymore. Take me away...
2 kommentarer:
aaaw :( Ewe!! You can call me anytime you feel lonely! I'm there for you. Even though I don't know you at all I feel that we're very much a like :)
Awe <3 Det där är egentligen inget att haka upp sig på. 5:e hjulet får man vara mååååånga gånger, och det är bara att bita ighop, för känslan försvinner snart igen. Jag har vart med om det mååååånga ggr.
Det gäller att fokusera på att det är skönt att vara singel - oftast. gnata upp det posetiva med det :)
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