Stupid dreams...

Last night I dreamt... It was a horrible dream, not nice at all. I never in my whole life want to dream it again. I hope it will not hunt me.
My parent screamed, I screamed, everyone screamed and you were just standing there and then disappeared. When I ran after you you hurt me, didn't want to listen to what I had to say. You just judged me and my family, you were so angry that you came forth and you had something in your hand. I thought you were going to hurt me so I hit you in the face. I can remember the anger I had in my body in the dream. I cried, and screamed. It was horrible. Don't ever make me dream it again.

Yet I feel, that I don't ever wish to see him again, I miss him yes and I call him. But I think things like that can never be the same. I need this loneliness. I need the feeling of looking. I just need myself and the people around me. ^_^