A bit different this time...

What is this feeling I'm having inside? I can't stop thinking of him and I just want to run away from home to meet him. I just want to meet him and feel him. Gosh, I know what people would think, the fact that he's 34 and I'm 18. Bah, whatever, why should I care about what people think? I mean really, I've never complained to others about a little thing as age. I've known this guy for almost 3 years now. I still see him as the same person, well, not exactly. I love him more now and I know also that saying love now is too early, but it feels so wonderful.

When I spoke to him over msn, seeing him over webcam and I using the microphone. Gosh I giggled so much and I was blushing constantly. I could barely look at the computer screen when I noticed him looking in the cam. I suddenly became so happy inside and I got inspired for the first time for awhile. When he suddenly got unsure about us due to the age difference, I just knew that I had to meet him soon. I have to touch him and hug him, I want to be in those arms NOW!

I've choosen not to tell too many people, it's the best. I don't want to be judged or anything like that, all I want now is to be happy. I just want to meet him first before I tell too many. I just want to see him now, or talk to him. Call him wimp and stuff just for a tease. *adore* ^^

Anyway, what's happening in my life other than what I just told you? I failed on the theorytest for my driving licence, I've cut my hair a little and I'm otherwise just enjoying my schoolbreak. Too bad it's almost over. Now I better go and do something important. *adore*