New Blog Address

So I have upgraded my blog now to wordpress, and it was all Erik's "fault" besides, I got kind of tired of this but still. Yeah whatever. Just wanted to link you guys so you could link it up and stuffs :) I will fix it much more and I am keeping this in case I get tired of Word Press ^.^

http://bonkvsgnu.wordpress.com

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Good Day!

Yes, I am fully aware of the fact that it was a long time since I wrote the last time. Terribly sorry about that but I haven't felt like writing anything special. After the concert I went to last week in Stockholm I have been kind of tired. The bands were great! All in all it was three band and first up was a Swedish band named Dead By April, they were kind of ok, though I wasn't feeling for that kind of hard metal at the moment I still jumped and was very excited that I would soon get to see two bands that just flew in from Japan and this would be their only show in Sweden! O.O

Matenrou Opera were first out and this was the band that I fell for the most when I sat at home listening to them before Jessica and I left to Stockholm. The whole concert with M.O would've been awesome if it wasn't for a stupid asshole who stood behind me and who thought that I was in his way. I also think he was protecting his girlfriend, I mean every time I started to jump and dig to the music he used his elbow to hold one of my shoulders down and when he wasn't doing that he pushed his arms hard in my back or tried penetrating my shoulders with his fingers. Stupid freak yes indeed, what was worst was the whole kicking part, when he tried to make me fall and all that. Anyways, when the other band Versailles - who were the main band for the evening entered the stage the douchebag was gone. HURRAH! So I could finally enjoy it all! Versailles were so awesome and so was Matenrou Opera.
Me and Jessica were kind of disappointed that we had booked our train tickets so that we wouldn't have time to go to the signing of the CD's BUT! Their plan was delayed so they were kind enough to do it after the show! ^.^ So now I have both bands (M.O's and Versailles's) Autographs and I am so happy! I got to thank them and take their hands! Oh mi gosh! And I thanked them so much in Japanese and awee! [insert all cute and happy emoticons]

But the concert was so much fun and the guy Jessica knew that we got to spend the night at was really nice, he had fixed our beds and he made us sandwiches when we came back and he even came to get us. Nice Man Reijo is indeed.

On Saturday it's party time! Jessica is turning 20 and I have made sure that we are invited to another party so we are combining the parties. ^.^

That's kind of all I have to tell you, I wonder if I forgot anything to mention, I sure did but whatever.

Now I will go and study some math! ^.^

Rather Strange...

My room is rather clean now, I just have to do something about all the crap that lies all random in my bookshelves. Though I don't feel that I can do something smart about it and I don't want to throw away something. Damn you bookshelves! I shall conquer you and then I shall laugh you in the face!

That's my plan at the moment. I have just stepped back a few steps...Meaning I am listening to my old music, this is including both pop like Blue, 5ive and a little Michael Jackson as well, then I am listening to some Soundtracks to Rocky and Rambo and similar music. Then, we have the pile of Death Metal and Black Metal, the huge scream "songs". But I can't really complain, I am enjoying the shit out of this. ^.^ And tomorrow I am going to Stockholm with Jessica and we are going to see Matenrou Opera and Versailles it's going to be so much fun! I haven't really listened much to either of the bands but who cares? Concerts are nice! I just discovered that Miyavi is coming to Sweden this summer! First of July to be more specific, the first Japanese artist I really listened to. But I don't think there's any possibility for me to go there. I mean if I have work and all that. It costs. But I have that if Gackt or Rentrer En Soi is coming here I am fucking going whatever the cost is! But I want to see Miyavi too!! Stupid Limit of time and money.

So now that I have been strange enough this morning I will go and try rape the bookshelves.
Talk to ya all later!

Freedom!

Yes I am back! Have finished the two exams now so from now on to Monday I am free!!!! I had my first exam on Tuesday and that was in Software Development Methodology, I hope I did well, at least I did my best but I can't say that I have focused much on this one. All my energy was put down to the exam we had yesterday in Economics. Yikes how boring it is and it makes no sense and if you sit and try to study to it and follow the rules and all that shit, it's still wrong, "why?" you ask? Because they felt like adding a thousand more stuffs to it! I did my best on that one too but sometimes it feels like I failed them both. I hope they are generous with the points. That way I might score something so I might make it!

After the exam yesterday, me and the fellow gang bangers : Erik, Linda and Derrick(who got his driver's license yesterday btw) took my car and went downtown to dah city! To quote Erik a bit they were Sushi virgins and to quote me I took their Sushi virginity away. star melodrama star
After the tasty sushi we went to book the tickets to see a movie! After a lot of disagreements we decided that we were going to see Spiderwick, it was very good movie I think. I thought it would suck a little cause it was so new and based on a fantasy Chronicle but I liked it so now I will go and get the books!

Now I will enjoy my day and actually clean up a bit here at home but first I will go and get some stuffs! Have a nice day ya'll! And thanks for the support all the time! Me like you long time!

Studies during Easter

Yes I really don't have time to sit here and tell you all about my lovely life, but just for you my friend I shall write. It's a lovely sunny weather outside and I could sit and just stare out in the blue. It's always like that when you have something important to do. Sadly.

For the moment I am listening to Damien Rice's CD Live from the Union Chapel. Perfect music to study to in my opinion, yet I get kind of distracted when I keep dreaming back to the time last summer, at the front row seeing him live, being so happy without any particular problem that bothered me. I don't mean to sound gloomy or anything, to be honest I am really cheerful nowadays as things are taking a turn for the better. On Thursday, when the exams are over, and everything is starting over again I can feel relaxed hopefully. Yet I don't believe in those terms when you say "as soon as this is accomplished things will be good again" cause then you never live in the present. But still, having two heavy exams on your head isn't making your presence nice. But now I will keep on studying and make one step closer to get more knowledge and become more sophisticated or whatever you become when you study economics and programming.

Adios!

Feeling envy and being hurt

I have noticed lately that I envy those who have found love that makes them happy. That single person to share your life with that makes every morning worth getting up for. So while I sit here and think about all the different kinds of love that I have bumped into I wonder why nothing ever works for me... People close who finds each other, people who has an ocean between them who still makes it work, people who have met, fallen in love and then had to part temporary in their life. And they still manage to keep the fire burning, the love never ends. I envy that kind of love. I hate that feeling that you're alone fighting for something that you believe in. I don't believe in "making" the other part do and feel those emotions you feel but realizing it is worse. To understand that the person you love doesn't love you back... That you in the blink of an eye got replaced.

So here I sit, all tired of the random crap that keeps on coming back, all the hurt feelings which makes me think about what "I did wrong", what could I have "done differentely"? I pretend to know the answer and thinks about the things I did wrong and keep telling myself that "I will do it differentely the next time", but do you really listen to it? I like to believe that I have learned something from this, something that I haven't discovered yet, a thing that will teach me the next time on how I should act.

At the same time you think about how far you were ready to go for the person you love, just to be closer. Even here I keep telling myself that the one I love did its best for our relationship, but in the end it wasn't enough for either of us.

I wouldn't say that I am desperate to find love, not now, not anymore. Not after all those stabs in the back. The thing I dislike with it all is that I keep on crying about this bullshit, it never ends. It doesn't matter how many times you go through this, you still get hurt.

So, with that written down I will make myself ready for school and then try and make the best out of it. I hope you all have a sunshine day! ^.^

Jollyday!

After some hard consideration I have decided, and maybe along with Erik too, that we need a better study circle. And we need maybe to fix so that the whole group actually gathers up. But that's our next project, at the moment our main goal is to actually learn something and then use that knowledge for the exams. Good luck on that. But it shouldn't be that hard and seriously we have started on it right?

Now I will get back on studying, well back and back I just got home so I will start studying now.